Burning Emotions…

He read the line again,

“I love you a lot, always have and always will. I will spend all my life at your every whim and will try my best never to hurt you…”

It had been more than half an hour and he still was stuck on the same line. It wasn’t like he was mentally slow or the line was written so eloquently that one would be so mesmerized by it that one loses all track of all time. It was just one of those lines which contained a lot of memories. Do you have one of those words or lines to which your memory has associated a whole memory to? If so; then maybe now you would realize that why he was stuck on that line.

“Tun tun”, the air of nostalgia was finally broken by the noise of the old grandfather clock striking four.

“Huh? It’s been this long already?” he smiled at himself thinking how long it had been. Reflecting upon his past life, in this half an hour, he had come across the same conclusion he had reached a few years back. It was a conclusion, to which, back then he never paid much attention to, but now after so much time had passed away making him a more experienced and a mature person, he knew his past conclusions, those he had chose to ignore at that time, were not wrong. He now loathed how in his youthful enthusiasm, he had chosen to ignore something that might have saved him from getting broken, something that would have made him more stronger to face this world, something which could had been the first brick in his Utopia… but it was too late now, he was broken beyond any repair now.

Yes, I know that “broken beyond repair” makes him sound like a machine or a robot, but in actuality this is how we live now a day. We hurt people by our acts and we break their hearts, we treat them like they aren’t made of flesh and blood but are made of metal. We are like that small child, who plays with his toy car just for his amusement but eventually while getting his amusement he breaks the car into tiny pieces and starts searching for a new way to amuse himself. The only difference in that kid and us is that we are actually capable of differentiating between metal and flesh…

Smiling, he turned the pages until he reached a blank page. Ironically, it was the last page. His smile widened and his eyes showed a tinge of sparkle, “how perfect. A befitting end to my past…” The dull, emotional and lost boy, who had opened his diary for a solution to his predicament, was now replaced by a strong and committed man who knew what he must do to survive. Committed to what? Well, that will be explained in due time…

He picked up a pen and wrote a few lines on that page. After finishing, he broke the nib of his pen on the page like an old judge passing the verdict on some criminal and started ransacking his cabinet for something. Soon, he found what he was searching for… a bottle of lighter fluid. Needless to say what he did after that but if you really must know, he closed his old diary and set it to fire and as he watched the fire scorch away all his life’s worst experiences and all the lies told to him, only one thing was going through his mind, the one lesson he had failed to learn before… The one lesson time and life taught him… unfortunately the hard way… the one lesson that was the gist of his life experiences and hardships… the one lesson, he had scribbled in his diary before burning it.

“Nothing in this world is permanent and no matter what you loose life will continue, it always has and it always will. Always logically analyze what others say as to be able to distinguish between the truth and the lies…

All my life what I thought would be my Avalon… would be the scarab that would protect me and make me immortal turned out to be nothing more than a fool’s paradise… All my life I may have loved beyond belief and never stopped to listen to logic… only to have reached one conclusion,

‘Love is for the weak minded.’ Dreams and emotions may be a gift of God but they also are a curse … learn to be their master and not let them be yours…”


4 Responses to “Burning Emotions…”

  1. nycly written…

  2. Dev!l Says:

    uh if there are any mistakes left please ignore them -.-‘ i always do that cuz i dun double check what i ahve written x.x

  3. Dreams and emotions may be a gift of God but they also are a curse … learn to be their master and not let them be yours…” —> rightly said 🙂

  4. ty… o.O whoever u are o.O

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